February 2010
so this really hot guy in New Jersey just friend requested me on FB. we have one mutual friend. FUH YES! hahaha
January 2010
And I decided that I'm
going to write a book. seriously so much has happened this year that it would be incredibly stupid not to. so look for me on the best sellers list in 5 years.
You know how you have that one friend you talk to every single day? where when you skip a day and feel incomplete?
yeah. last time we talked was thursday, and it’s killing me. and my phone is MIA, so all communication via that device is unavailable.
BLAH i feel like BELLAAAAAAAAA
oh. and i decided that if i go to Eckerd college, i’m getting an english bulldog. end of story.
So I had this really bright idea.
about going and being a marine biologist at Eckerd.
FML
lemme just tell you what i’m gonna have to take.
Freshman: CALC I
SOPHOMORE: CALC II AND CHEM I & II AAAANDDDD MOLECULAR BIOLOGY
Junior: not so bad. organic chemistry looks most ridic
but wait
SENIOR: PHYSICS I & II
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH
After much scientific research,
i have come to the conclusion that everybody is fucking crazy and they need to stop having sex all the time with people they don’t give a shit about.
Deciding on a College
is going to be a helluva lot harder than i thought it would.
Eckerd—the one i reeeeally wanted to go to (besides UF, obv)
FL southern—the one i didn’t really care about. until i spent the weekend there and made 3 potential best friends in 12 hours not to mention met a great guy who was deff going there to play sports.
st leo—the other one i liked, but didn’t really...
Can I just say
what a badass i feel like right now?
oh, and is it bad that i already know where a gas station is that i wont get carded at if i go to a certain college?
ps
I totally ran into some of the hottest college guys on the planet OMFG. hardly saw an ugly one the entire time i was there, it was fabulous.
whatAweekend.
Great. Because that's definately what i wanted to...
i will not eat anymore girl scout cookies
i will not eat anymore girl scout cookies
i will not eat anymore girlscout cookies
i will not eat anymore girlscout cookies
i will not eat anymore girlscout cookies
i will not eat anymore girlscout cookies
i will not eat anymore girlscout cookies
i will not—
okay.
maybe just one more.
“Anything you dream is fiction, and anything you accomplish is science, the whole...”
– Ray Bradbury (via booklover)
go[als] DAY 1: January 24, 2010
so today i drank a lot of water. which i think is good. but i feel fat as a house. which is not good. and i weigh the most i have ever waid ever yet so far in my life. 18.6
you know if you round up that becomes 120.
on the bright side i only had 3 thin mints with my breakfast this morning
and i didn’t get a black and white cookie from bagel twins with my motzah ball soup & everything...
Updated Goals of 2010:
SLEEP MORE
Eat less sugar
use LOL and LMAO alotttt less
Stop dropping my cell phone
Move out
drink more….um. water.
shop A LOT less
watch a new movie every night
learn to make some lavishly impressive dessert
DO MY HOMEWORK
okay. lets see if i can do this.
Look! my $1,000 jacket that I wanted is now on... →
Goals for 2010
Sleep more
Eat less sugar
use LOL and LMAO alotttt less
Stop dropping my cell phone
Move out
It’s a pretty pathetic goals list, i know. But I hate making goals in the beginning of the year that I get all excited about at first and then just get disappointed when I never reach them. loll
^^that was me laughing out loud not really and then crossing it out since i’m trying to use...
So.
i just noticed that whenever i’m really tired, my eyebrows are raised. huh. like i can’t make them go down. asdkfj;asdkfj I’M TIREDDDDD
maybe i should take a nap. lol i only woke up an hour ago.
Dear God,
Thank you for inventing the orange tree. no seriously. If oranges didn’t exist I would be a much sadder person. So thanks.
Good Morning!
Hi friends.
so right now i’m tweaking my unbelievably AMAAAAZING playlist for Megansthesex and Amanda because I didn’t notice till after i burned MY copy that I COMPLETELY left Mayday Parade out of it. How could I have done that? How? idk. but i did. so I’m fixing that.
Today. was. the longest. dayofmylife.
for real.
this was how today looked
World Religions aka boring movie about hallelujah-thank-you-jesus-ness.
Individual and Dual Sports just further evidence that I have no hand-eye coordination and that it’s a damn good thing i stuck to dancing. poor connor. we lost every game because of me. not even his tennis skills could save us
English: MR KELLY WTF ARE WE READING IN YOUR CLASS?!?!?!...
Boulder #2:
remember when i said that fate was a nasty little mofo who likes hurling boulders at people just when they think he’s stopped throwing pebbles at their window? yeah. it’s true.
take today, for example.
my mom just called me to say that she might have 2 tendons ripped in her foot. one of them the achillies.
which means that she won’t be able to drive since it’s her right...
Fuhhhkk.
I feel like such an immature idiot. And maybe I overreacted. And seriously i need to keep my mouth shut. wtf? i used to be so good at doing that. what happened? idk. God help me, this is going to be interesting. blahhhh. shit. shit shit shit. SHITTTT. can’t wait to get out of here. wherever here is. lol
“All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I’ve been...”
She's sad and she doesn't know why.
maybe i didn’t give her enough credit. Maybe she picked up on my sadness at what she did on a subconcious level and hasn’t figured out why she’s sad yet.
either that or she didn’t want to flat out tell me.
I feel bad. I mean, she found somebody that’s probably really good for her. But it’s just the fact that it was a particular somebody. Any other sombody...
Dear Amanda, if you don't go to band practice I'm...
okay?
because clearly, you love me more.
You don't have to call
anymore.
I won’t pick up the phone….
Dear Followers, i’m sorry i’m always in such a bad mood on here. i really am. it’s not fair to the 3 of you. hahaha i just need a place for thoughts that the vast majority of my friends can’t see. and twitter worked great for that purpose until more people got it and now i’m like shit they’re gonna know what...
it figures.
i’m just speechless. really, i’m speechless. fuck my life. just fuck it over and throw it in a canal somewhere because i’m so over all of this crap.
and i’ve been robbed of my senior year. because it’s sucked. this whole year has just sucked and you know what? i don’t deserve it.
the moral of the story?
Life isn’t fair and it never will be.
so just...
Life's a bitch.
no seriously.
you want what you shouldn’t, what you can’t have, what’s not yours to want. you don’t care about what comes easy. take for granted what’s handed to you. But if what you wanted was really how you wanted it to be instead of how it really was, would you still want it? Or would you get bored with it and toss it away like you do every thing else when the...
“He stands there, then walks away. My God, if i could only say, i’m holding...”
Perfect, not really.
I like seeing other people happy.
I like making other people feel happy.
But when it comes to my own happiness idk. i can’t be bothered. i push people away alot, guys in particular because I’m afraid it’ll be/people will think/I’LL think it’s something more than it is. and it seems like there’s always something that happens that screws everything up.
And my...